How confident am I to dream this??

                            
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            • Vision                                   • Resilience                            
    - Clear                                     - grew from littly family supported                   
    - Details                                   - Lack of mental health care 
    - Possible                                  - walking alone since teenager
                                                - live in the dorm since high school to 2nd year 
                                                    of university
    • Purpose                                   - working with new people in 
    - Clear                                       every workplace
    - Details                                   - staying calm & free in any situations, no matter 
                                                    how difficult. 
                                                                
                                                • Curiosity                                      
    • Empathy                                   - experience as an artist trainee in a top 
    - Absolutely                                  Cambodian entertainment C. 
                                                - experience as a dancer with a top Cambodian 
                                                    dancer's member
    • Story                                     - Chose Banking, enterprise(luxury brand), startup, 
    - Yes                                           and community to learn
                                                - hangout and explore difference games             
                                                                        
                                                • Adaptability              
    • Land                                      - from a farmer to a developer in city,                      
    - Yes                                       - from want to be a singer to want to be an 
                                                    entrepreneur
                                                - from a proven to a silence
    • Innovative thinking                       - from a beauty heart to a good heart
    - Algorithm course is my                    - from a silly with loyalty to a better player                                              
    favorite one in web programming                      
    major, it make me overthinking, but I feel  • Self-Confidence   
    enjoyed, it's like playing game.            - attended the studio recording songs                     
    - I chose to built mixed experiences        - attended dancing studio and record videos                                          
    - I chose to built this static page         - attended a welcoming an artist ceremony surrounded 
    from scratch instead of use libraries         by multiple media
    - I chose to published personal site        - attended a fashion event                  
    instead of portfolio, I could build         - joined a live interview about Indigenous women 
    multiple portdolio in hour using ai           in tech
    but I don't interested in thise.            - published some vedeos online sharing experience                                        
                                                - not seeking validation from people                                                  
                                                - not bagging excuses or attentions         
                                                - mistakes is a training session
                                                - not chasing for butterflies, I'm raising my
                                                  own garden
                                            
                                                
                                    
                                                                                                    
                                                 • Risk Tolerance                                               
                                                - lelf home at 15 without certain promises,
                                                - not follow traditional education steps, 
                                                    I've skipped some foundation like pre-primary, 
                                                    grade 4, and grade 8 and jumped into the main 
                                                    section in high school,
                                                - 1st educators, 1st tech collaborator, 1st officer, 
                                                    1st informal-singer, 1st informal-dancer,
                                                    1st reputation-builder, 1st transformers 
                                                    in my family & the whole village.     
                                                - explored multiple industries without worrig too much 
                                                    about career images, 
                                                - applied & signed 5 years training contract for 
                                                    trainee-artist without seeking approval,
                                                - trying international program without holding the 
                                                    main key yet, just applied with a backup plans,
                                                - lunching this static page and share experience, 
                                                    maybe there are some people with high egos 
                                                    about the facts would be feel uncomfortable with 
                                                    my speeches, but I still keep the server alive and open.
    
                                                                
                                                • Persistence  
                                                - drop out after finished primary school. 
                                                - my parents didn't allow me to study, but I want freedom.
                                                - I got so much time heart broken, getting blame and ignorance, 
                                                    but never turning back.
                                                - no one supported me for the first moved, until they did.
                                                - no one put on eyes me for the first step, until they following me.
                                                - multiple times requested without answer, untill just one small 
                                                    complaint got noticed.
                                                - earlier, there are somebody bullied me about my english pronunciation,
                                                    but now I'mma English-speaking trainer.
                                                - when I was young, there are somebody bullied about my appearance, 
                                                    until they requested me for love.
                                                - somebody hated me without getting know me, until they eyes on me 
                                                    and say "I was getting wrong on you" without needing an explanation.
                                                - some villagers once gossiped on me that I'm a lazy girl, 
                                                    now they tell their children to look up to me.
                                                - born with neutral face and dangerous eyes getting much validation, 
                                                    but that fine cuz I leave them out.
                                                
    
                                                • Creativity  
                                                - Merging arts, tech, and education it's built an effective networks 
                                                    for entrepreneurial rather than wasting budget on fake potential,
                                                - Enter different boxes, collect knowledge and background to create
                                                    possibilities for unexpected transformations,
                                                - Gather experience and references to build a strong fundamental 
                                                    to support future move,
                                                - I want to enter higher class, so I can't just follow the rules 
                                                    was made for low or middle class.
    
                                                • Networks 
                                                - dev,qa, infra,...
                                                - cyber,devOps/devSecOps,...
                                                - dancers
                                                - producers
                                                - artist manager
                                                - doctor, pharmacist,...
                                                - agricultural researcher, architecture 
                                                - community operators
                                                ... 
                                                not because I'm introvert it mean I'm lost resources,
                                                I just selected some good resources.
                                                not socialize but I found some touchable libraries.
                                                
                                                
                                                • Self awareness  
                                                - I know I couldn't handle much random talk in the events,
                                                    it's such gonna drained my energy more than fill it in, 
                                                    so I use lazy way to stay comfort and still got the resources.
                                                    Maybe not much, and I don't want that much, also don't believe 
                                                    that much probably meet my quality standard.
                                                - I see all my strength & weakness, what type of model would be work 
                                                    and do not work for me. So, when someone told me to use their model,
                                                    it's...mm.. littly okay but not good.
                                                
                                                
                                                • Long terms focus 
                                                - Sure, when I do somethig I'm not close the doors, but turn on the gate,
                                                    it mean I got everything but not evolved.
                                                - Not getting envolved, nobody will feel free to bother me anymore.
                                                - Was training to do difficult things before getting involved in the society,
                                                    so, I could if I want.
                                                
                                                
                                                • Comfort with failure 
                                                - I've feel everything, family? friends? career? education? others? so I could 
                                                    sitting and having coffee while the thing goes wrong.
                                                    some people ones said "I just can't do like her, could staying free while ...,
                                                    I would be feel uncomfort and ...", I don't mind 
                                                    'cuz I think they're still a junior for their life.
                                                - by being only an educated person in an uneducated family it's really hard to survive,
                                                    it's cause pandemic to mental health, and slow down my self-development. But fine! I'm
                                                    comfort now, not only with family, with everything.